There are phases in my life when I am at the limits of lunacy.At these times my mind gets on with queer thoughts!During one such recent phase,I have a strange question for myself–”Who exactly am I?”
Well,that’s not really tough to answer-I am a 180 cm tall male human being,having two eyes,two ears,a nose and a mouth,two hands,two legs and the other regulars…..But that’s only the physical me!What about the mental me??After all,everyone has one!Someone who can’t really be visualised!Someone who’s totally abstract!Someone who’s a compendium of the larger ME!Someone who’s a congregation of thoughts!Aah THOUGHTS!!That’s what people say I am all about.They assert that I am a thinker,that I am always playing with thoughts.But if they think so,I think they don’t think at all!Well,it’s not that I never think….I do think occasionally and what your eyes are fixed on at present is nothing but a reflection of my thoughts.
THOUGHTS!What not they can do.People say I love to think.But actually,I think to love.To be able to love.To be able to understand the nuances of love….the love of a man for his wife,the love of a mother for her child,the love of waves for the shore,the love of birds for the sky,the love of an insect for light,the loves of other similar and unsimilar things.All these loves are so different,yet so much the same!To be able to love,you have to be able to think.
But thoughts are not always soothing.At times,they bear the force to disrupt the peace of your mind and leave you in a mess.Only the other day,I was standing in front of the mirror and a thought came to me…..What if this was not the real world,what if I was just a reflection and the real world was on the other side of the mirror?What if in actuality my image was the real me and was standing in front of the mirror smiling at my ignorance?What if I have been living inside this mirror all my life?!!
Now,that was disturbing for me!So you see,the thinking process comes with a price.Everything does!If only it was not so.If only there were no disturbing thoughts….If only thoughts were only pleasant and soothing.Kash!KASH….IF Only!!
